Three weeks??

I didnt even realize it had been so long...
So, lets get you up to speed.

I think her Anxiety has gotten the worst of her the last few weeks - I know its an adjustment period, but its still hard. We have found BOTH of our eyes red and puffy from crying, and some days we are sitting cuddled up on the couch calming each other down.

Other days we zoom through so quickly that its crazy!!
I think back and realize that on those days, I have read her the Lessons, and sometimes the test. But we always stop after each page, or after a couple slides,and go over what she has learned. I don't want to make it easy on her, I just want her to find a way to learn that works for her.

Sadly I don't know her bio-dads Medical History. When I asked, I never got a response.
(If you're reading this, any of you, I would love for you to tell me if ADD, ADHD, or Anxiety is up in the air with her medical history!!!)

At any rate - some days are harder than others, and I know the same applies to B&M schools. But in the end, I know this is what's best for her. I need her to learn, and retain information. What she chooses to do with t later is up to her.

You know me - I am not about TEACHING, I am about her Learning!
I want her to find a way she learns best.

She has this amazing plan, and I am SO SO SO SOOOOOO proud of her!!

She wants to graduate HS, go into Design School, and then Architecture School. I think this is an amazing plan! So, we went over what she needed to really focus on - MATH, Art,  and History.

I told her Science won't play a huge role in Design. Math - you need that to plan out materials, be they cloth, or building. Art - for the obvious reasons. History - because someone may want to build based upon a historical vent or time that she will need to better understand.

I think a lot of times we over look the most important things - our childrens goals. Why are we so worried about our own goals? Shouldn't we be giving our Children the ability to set and reach their own goals? I know we need to help them along - help them find a way that that can achieve their goal. But we need to play a positive role in it.

Damn it, if they want to cook burgers - good for them!!! Doesn't mean they have to be at a Fast Food place. They could be working at an upscale Mediterranean spot, with delicious Lamb & Feta Burgers with a Kalamata Tapenade.

If they want to be an architect, they don't have to design skyscrapers - they can design small scale Mom & Pop shops.

We don't need to push them to do more than they wish the achieve, unless we know they are doing it for lack of self-faith.
But if they have a goal that is a good goal, a firm goal that they have thought out. Nurture it - let it be THEIR goal, don't adjust it to be your goal. Thats just bad parenting.

Don't live through your child, let your child live for themselves!

Testing, Testing, 1... 2... 3...

I didn't realize how long it had been since I posted...

UGH,
Today is PARCC testing for my daughter and its not our favorite thing to do, obviously.
I know what my anxiety issues are like, but then we think about how a 12 year old is handling them, and I feel horrible for her.

She has been down once to check in with me, and I sent her back up with a bottle of water. I hope she is ok.

I always feel bad - have I created this?
I know she has seen my anxiety through her own eyes, I fear it was a learned thing, and not a DNA thing.

At any rate, I am thankful for the woman who is overseeing the testing. She brought my LO down and had all good things to say, did all she could to ease the Anxiety. I am so thankful.

I hope it gets better as the day goes on...

Test #2 is this afternoon at 1pm